Angela's Wired Words

Featured, Thoughts

Of Our Purpose

Sometimes God teaches me a lesson and I think, maybe that one was just for me and I shouldn’t worry about blogging it. But sometimes He won’t let me go until I share it. This is one of those lessons. I few weeks ago, fresh in the mire of grief following a miscarriage and D&C, still worn out and slow after surgery, while my husband was at the men’s retreat I insisted he still attended¬†and my mother was at the grocery store making a chocolate run, I had my first moment  ...

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Featured, Gestational Carrier, Surrogacy

He is Still Good

Nearly two weeks ago we learned that the life I had been carrying in my womb had turned to death only a week after we first saw that tiny heart beating. Weeks I carried death in my own body, without even knowing. The reality of that truth was painful – I had been living a lie and didn’t even know it. I was hurt, but, more, I was hurting for those precious parents – the ones who had entrusted their little treasure to my care. As only God had planned, we received this news  ...

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Featured, Gestational Carrier

Surrogacy – The Loss

I fell asleep last night on a pillow soaked in tears, fists wrapped tightly around crumpled hankies, and I know I wasn’t the only one. Yesterday was the first time I experienced that moment of trepidation when the nurse assures you, “You’re only 11 weeks and two days – it’s still a little early to hear the heartbeat sometimes.” That sinking knowledge that you’ve heard in the past the little flutter of a heartbeat can be heard on that small machine  ...

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Featured, Gestational Carrier, Surrogacy

Surrogacy – FAQ

As we have shared the news of our surrogacy with friends and family, we have run across some questions that tend to be on everyone’s mind. While this is, by no means, an exhaustive list, I thought I could address some inquiries here – for those burning with curiosity – which pertain to our own personal journey. I will note, however, that I am not qualified to answer anything on behalf of the parents of this precious little one. They have their own story – it’s  ...

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Now What?

I’m not going to lie. The day I found out the transfer was officially successful – I was pregnant! – was a little bit anti-climactic. Because I simply knew my body and its schedule, I was mostly assuming, by the time of the official test, only about a week and a half after the embryo transfer, that I was, indeed, pregnant. And that was absolutely thrilling. I wanted so much for this to work – and for it to work the first time. So, don’t get me wrong, I was  ...

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