Of Renewing Our Hope
We faced the black and white screen once again – that same room, that same doctor – the one who pronounced to us only four months ago the unexpected loss of something so precious and anticipated – he, too, had that look on his face, the one that said he hoped so much for something better to tell us this time, but that he was almost afraid to hope. We were all a little afraid in that room.
And then it came, the tiny, grainy flicker of a tiny grain-sized heart beating. Beating. Swishing. Living.
And we all breathed out.
It’s still there. This second attempt at bringing life into a family that has so longed for this gift is still pumping its blood through its smallest of bodies. And my body gets to be the vessel once more.
We are so happy and blessed to bear witness, once again, to the miracle God can create in the womb of a woman. We remember, now, that it’s not merely science or simply biology. This life wasn’t created in a lab, but breathed into by God our Creator who alone is the giver of life.
We are so grateful for all who have prayed with us and continue to lift us up as this small life with such a huge impact continues to grow. And we will continue to hope.
And as I read today through the words of Isaiah, I am reminded of this truth, that when we feel most weak and ready to give up, He is always ready to give to us His power. We have been exhausted. We have been faint. We have been weary. Yet, we have felt His might with so much strength over the past months.
We continue to run and we do not grow weary, because He who holds the heavens in His hands and calls all the billions of stars by name has certainly not forgotten us.
“He gives power to the faint,
and to him who has no might he increases strength.
Even youths shall faint and be weary,
and young men shall fall exhausted;
but they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength;
they shall mount up with wings like eagles;
they shall run and not be weary;
they shall walk and not faint.” – Isaiah 40:29-31
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